MAXED UP WITH STRESS! I FEEL STRANGE, TRIED, OUT OF IT, BORED BORED BORED! SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAM!







i miss Alex, i miss Alex, i miss Alex. i say this to him everyday over telephone wires and loud music, "i miss you, i miss you." i spend my days at school, wanting to be home in bed with him or exploring street corners and random dives, unable to hold information in my mixed up ++ upside down head/brain/cranium! my grades are up! then down! i just need time to breath--any time I find myself sleeping or doing something other than concentrating on school I'm feel gulity. pressure pressure pressure to do well. i don't want to fail.

let's go bowling! let's go see films! let's go buy shit! i lust lust lust for knickknacks for the house, clothing, delicious healthy food, gifts for my babylovebugz, a hair cut, flowers, and time time time! i repeat in threes.

i think i need to stop smoking so much hookah and Maryjane & i think i need my lovely friends in my life more.

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND BECAUSE;
-he came home with 3 surprises: he got me 3 hello kitty watches from McDonald's & he just bought the watches and didn't get food or anything.
-he held my hand all morning long in court
-he's taking me to the park today & to get Popsicle
-he told me how he was of me proud and that i was so brave
-he is always there for me
-he lets me call him redic names such as babylovebugz!
-we watch It's always Sunny in Philadelphia all day errrrday!
-and numerous of other things but the sun is calling my name and the blue sky is ready to eat me up whole!


oh man Alejandro Sanchez you got my heart goin CRAZY with love!

PS: it's fucking February and i get to wear this [!] :

days days days : daze daze daze

summer air, spring wind, winter month, Pullen Park, Whole Foods picnic, burritos and mini cupcakes, beaut friend, Popsicle, windows down, hungry trees eating blue sky, stuck in branches, arms arching to climb, children's stories, adult conversations, court woes, homework done, roman history llullaby, open windows, fans on high, Jack in the Box, films, mellowing, hookahing, valentines day tomorrow, Coraline 3D, gas station food, rosary bead eyes.

oh AND! PS/BTW! ily ily ily ily:


rock of love girlz.

at the moment i am attempting to write a paper for my Sociology of the Family class but am failing miserably and terribly. the people upstairs are playing terrible music and sound as though they are skate boarding across their floor. i hear cars passing by outside and am banking on finding a rides to Sean's house, hopefully. my favorite film is playing on the television, coals are being made for a hookah, and droopy is sleeping nearby. life is lovely. however, i am jonesing for the road, to attempt to dance at the Streetlight show, sunny days, slushies, art museums, Cup a Joe chocolate milk and/or coffee, fresh air & cool breeze, tan arms and legs, and all these lovely things i have found!












for alex's side of the bed:


for mine:


must get many of these to put around my room: